2023年6月11日星期日

A True Father Who Loses to God

 


Genesis 32:3-31

Jacob Wrestles with God

20 years ago, Jacob cheated Esau of his birthright and the blessing of their father. Esau said that he wanted to kill Jacob to settle the grudge that he had against his brother (27:41). As a result, Jacob had no choice but to flee his own home to Paddan Aram, the home of his uncle. He later built a home there.

However, the life Jacob had wasn’t a smooth one, because his uncle and his uncle’s children envied the wealth that Jacob had accumulated. In the end, Jacob decided to leave Paddan Aram and go back to his home with his wives, servants and livestock.

Jacob and company were finally going to meet Esau after a long time. Great danger awaited them. Jacob sent his servants ahead of him to his brother Esau in the country of Edom, to greet him and to say hello.

Verses 3-5: Jacob sent messengers ahead of him to his brother Esau in the land of Seir, the country of Edom. He instructed them: “This is what you are to say to my lord Esau: ‘Your servant Jacob says, I have been staying with Laban and have remained there till now. I have cattle and donkeys, sheep and goats, male and female servants. Now I am sending this message to my lord, that I may find favour in your eyes.’”

Jacob’s purpose of doing this was to first try to get some news about his brother and secondly to indicate that he was willing to submit to his brother. Jacob stood low, calling Esau as lord.

Esau responded by bringing along 400 men to meet with Jacob (v.6). Esau was bearing down on Jacob menacingly, as if he wanted to punish Jacob for, he had done. How should Jacob deal with this?

Prayer and Action Carried Out Simultaneously

Jacob feared that Esau came with bad intentions. He exercised fully the spirit of caution and strives; he split his people and property into two groups, sending one group ahead as a sign of goodwill towards Esau in order to win his heart. If one group were to be attacked, the other group would be able to escape.

At the same time, Jacob did not forget to pray to God. He prayed for God’s protection over him. In his prayer, Jacob reminded God of the promise to make him prosper and his descendants numerous.

Verses 9-12, Jacob said, “O God of my father Abraham, God of my father Isaac, Lord, you who said to me, ‘Go back to your country and your relatives, and I will make you prosper,’ I am unworthy of all the kindness and faithfulness you have shown your servant. I had only my staff when I crossed this Jordan, but now I have become two camps. Save me, I pray, from the hand of my brother Esau, for I am afraid he will come and attack me, and also the mothers with their children. But you have said, ‘I will surely make you prosper and will make your descendants like the sand of the sea, which cannot be counted.’”

Jacob did not just sit still and do nothing; he also did not panic due to fear. He planned for the worst-case scenario, which is the best plan a person could do. Jacob did his part as a man, then looked to God and prayed, maintaining a close and good relationship with God through prayer. When man has a good relationship with God, he can look forward to resolving conflicts with men.

Are we facing dilemmas, crises and challenges in our lives today? What do we mean when we say we should look to God?

To “Look to God” means to do all we can to the best of our ability to solve a problem. When we have done all, we can, we will realize that there are some areas that cannot be done by the hands of man. It is at this point that we call out to God, asking God to give us grace to fill in where we lack.

Today, many pray, but do not act. This is just an excuse to not do anything. Many people, after measuring their own ability, feel that they will fail; therefore, they do not act. This is not the correct attitude because we do not know how to look to God.

If we only go ahead start launching a project after we consider a project thoroughly, making sure it is 100% feasible, then would God still have room to work?

We should do our part and also pray to God; these two aspects must occur simultaneously. Our correct attitude should be acknowledging that we are incompetent, yet stepping out in faith and looking to God for help. Moreover, when we maintain a close relationship with God, many difficulties and conflicts will resolve by themselves.

As the story continued to develop, we see that Jacob was safe and sound, being forgiven and accepted by his brother.

33:4 says, “But Esau ran to meet Jacob and embraced him; he threw his arms around his neck and kissed him. And they wept.”

It is surprising to see that Esau’s attitude towards Jacob had totally changed. He treasured and loved Jacob and welcomed him back. Esau’s change of heart was not due to Jacob’s scheming, but rather Jacob’s prayer to God. God changed Esau’s heart that he may be satisfied with all that he had and not plunder Jacob. God’s work is indeed wonderful!

Do you still remember God’s call and promises to you? Are you worrisome and uneasy when you face difficulties today?

Do not give up, do not be discouraged, but rely and pray to God. Entrust your problems to God and rely on God to move forward. Your difficulties are no more serious than the crisis that Jacob encountered!

Hold On to God, the Night will Pass

Now, it’s night time. Jacob would meet Esau early the next morning. Jacob had sent his family and all his possessions across the stream at the ford of Jabbok, but he stayed behind. Why did Jacob want to be left alone?

Did he want to have quiet meditation and continue to pray to God? Or did he want to calm himself and think of a counter strategy? Or is he trying to flee when the opportune moment comes?

20 years ago, he crossed the Jordan alone with his staff. Now, he had family, possessions, and wealth. Could he leave everything behind as easily as before?

Even in his mother’s womb, Jacob was already fighting with Esau. He wanted to fight for the family wealth, the authority to lead, honour, and his father’s love and blessings.

Jacob’s pursuits and struggles reflected the competitive mentality of today’s people. When morning comes, Jacob’s life would come to a turning point. He might lose everything he had. Life, in the end, is always empty.

It was a long night. Jacob was confused and dispirited. He was alone, without family, without his possessions, without any protection. He had to face life and death alone. At a moment like this, God appeared!

A mysterious man suddenly appeared before Jacob. It was very dark, and Jacob without first identifying the mysterious person lunged forward and wrestled with him until daybreak.

Jacob could have imagined his opponent as the difficulties and forces that act against him in his life. These included his brother Esau. Through wrestling and physical exertion, Jacob released the fear, anxiety and the stagnation of his heart.

Dawn was fast approaching and the first rays of the sun could be seen over the horizon. “Night” represented the darkness and struggles of Jacob’s life, while “Dawn” foretold of Jacob’s healing and release from his suffering and challenges. Jacobs’s problems resolved by themselves!

Jacob felt that his opponent came from God, so he held on to him, refusing to let go until the person gave him a blessing.

Verses 26-28 say, Then the man said, “Let me go, for it is daybreak.” But Jacob replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.” The man asked him, “What is your name?” “Jacob,” he answered. Then the man said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, because you have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome.”

From struggle and wrestling, Jacob transitioned to prayer. All his pursuits and struggles could not bring him true happiness and satisfaction. Only by holding on to God tightly that life can be safe and steady; that life can be satisfied.

The blessing that the mysterious man gave Jacob – his new name – Israel signified a new life from God. That he might step out with boldness to confront his problems and overcome them.

Today, we might struggle with others all the time, like Jacob. By hook or by crook, we struggle for wealth, relationships, career, honour, authority, and so on. To desire and go after these things is not wrong. What’s wrong is we think that we can find happiness, satisfaction, purpose and fulfilment if we managed to obtain these things.

These must not be our ultimate goal. We will eventually find that life is transient and these things will not give us the satisfaction and purpose that we seek for. We will suddenly fall into “Night”. We will face difficulties. We will struggle and panic.

This is the moment when God comes and meet with us. He will guide us and bless us, giving us the strength to face our challenges.

Let us wrestle with God in our prayers, worship and serving. Hold on to God; persevere in seeking Him, trusting Him, until He blesses us. If we have God with us in our lives, His grace will be sufficient for us, and He will add unto us other things that will satisfy our desires that we may have true happiness and life with His purposes in mind.

A True Father Who Loses to God

For a big part of his life, Jacob was wrestling with God, cheating and plotting against others. The mysterious person said that Jacob struggled with God and humans and have overcome/won. Did Jacob really win?

Verse 25: “When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob’s hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man.”

Jacob actually lost to God! The mysterious man “lightly” touched Jacob’s hip and made him limp. That person has a supernatural ability; he purposely let Jacob win when they were wrestling. He wanted to leave before daybreak to save Jacob from seeing the face of God and die.

What’s paradoxical is that after losing to God, Jacob became a true winner. He realized that God is bigger than him and that he would need to solely rely on God and obey God.

Now that Jacob was limping, he could not do anything by his own strength; not even flee by himself. Instead, he now relied on God’s blessing in his weakness and has victory. Limping, Jacob went to the forefront of his family and greeted Esau.

33:1-2 say this, “Jacob looked up and there was Esau, coming with his four hundred men; so he divided the children among Leah, Rachel and the two female servants. He put the female servants and their children in front, Leah and her children next, and Rachel and Joseph in the rear. He himself went on ahead and bowed down to the ground seven times as he approached his brother.”

Jacob went on with his wound. However, these wounds were the mark of grace, reminding Jacob that God is with him. He overcame his difficulties solely by relying on God’s promises and grace. He was no longer a deserter. He shouldered the burden of being the head of a family and went forward to face the danger and struggles ahead!

Today, we might be like Jacob, consistently wrestling with others and with God. We fight for what we want. As long as we get what we want, we give no compassion for others. The end justifies the means; cash is king! We do not submit to God, nor do we submit to the authorities that God placed over us. We want to walk our own path. We fuss over every little thing with God. We want to hold on to fame, profit, power, love, wealth, career and so on. On the surface, we are winner, but in actual fact, we are the losers.

Life is uncertain and changes all the time. One day we might lose our fame, profit, power, love, wealth, career…. We will stumble and be depressed. We might even be unable to face reality and seek to end our own lives by then.

If one day we did finally obtain these things, we would realize that they do not bring us lasting fulfilment and happiness. We would realize that we held on to the wrong things. These things are “idols”; unable to give us happiness and the purpose of life.

People including Christians have many “idols” that replaced the true and living God in our lives. That’s why our lives are uneasy and day by day we live anxiously. Our hearts are not satisfied. We do not have peace and joy, only struggles and exhaustion. The purpose and happiness of our lives can only come from God Himself. Only God can truly satisfy the emptiness and longing in our hearts.

In the darkness at Golgotha, Jesus Christ hung tightly onto the cross in weakness in order to redeem us. Even though Jesus had the ability to come down from the cross, He did not, because he wants to justify us before God the Father and thus obtain His blessing. The blessing is not for Him, but for us.

Galatians 3:13-14 say, Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us, for it is written: “Cursed is everyone who is hung on a pole.” He redeemed us in order that the blessing given to Abraham might come to the Gentiles through Christ Jesus, so that by faith we might receive the promise of the Spirit.

Just like Jacob, we were face to face with God, yet we did not die. Instead, we received blessing because Jesus died in weakness on the cross. He paid the debts of our sins, that we may be reconciled to God. In this way, God’s blessing on Abraham may come to us.

We cannot find blessing outside of God. In Christ, we are received as the sons and daughters of God.  The Spirit Himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children, by whom we cry, “Abba! Father!” From God, we can receive the ultimate blessing of life.

Today, if we had taken the long way round, journeying through countless struggles and pursuing wrong goals to obtain happiness, it is time to turn back and receive Jesus as the lord of our lives and return to the embrace of God. The real winner is the person who loses to God.

To lose to God means to submit to God’s lead, putting down our rebelliousness and surrender to the majesty of God, obeying His will, fearing Him, and placing Him at the centre of our lives.

With God as our guarantee and refuge, our lives will be safe and steady, full of joy and purpose. We can accept our gains and losses in life, because we know that in all circumstances God loves us, he wants to bring the best out of us. We can rest in his embrace. Are you willing to be this great winner?

2023年6月5日星期一

在艰难中奋进


 尼希米记4:1-15

尼希米率众建城墙遭受各方阻扰

我们从尼希米记第4章,看看如何在困境之中,在压力之下,在各种挑战和反对声中不丧胆退却,却能够勇敢面对,去成就要我们成就的事工。

公元前538年,所罗巴伯带领第一批以色列民从波斯统治下的巴比伦归回耶路撒冷。80年后,伊斯拉率领第二批百姓归回,并且圣民的信仰身份。尼希米则在公元445年同第三批以色列民(犹大人)回到耶路撒冷重建城墙。

尼希米记第4章记载,在重建耶路撒冷城墙的工作上,尼希米和犹大人一再受到邻近的敌人的攻击和反对。第一个敌人是参巴拉;他是撒玛利亚的省长。撒玛利亚位于犹大的北面。耶路撒冷则在犹大的境内。参巴拉可能想成为犹大的省长,但尼希米的回归使他的计划落空。

撒玛利亚人是谁呢?

在尼希米以前三百多年,北国以色列被亚述攻陷,大部分人被掳走(公元前722)。亚述的撒珥根王把其他地区的俘虏迁到以色列。那些外族的俘虏与留在当地的以色列人通婚后,生下的混血儿便是撒玛利亚人。

以斯拉和尼希米带领下,回归耶路撒冷的犹大人与撒玛利亚人互不往来。犹大人认为撒玛利亚人的血统不纯正。其后这两族的关系渐趋恶化,一直到耶稣的时代。

参巴拉听见尼希米率领犹大人重建耶路撒冷城墙,就发怒,大大脑恨,嗤笑犹大人说:“这些软弱的犹大人在作什么呢?想自己修筑城墙吗?想要献祭吗?想要在一天之内完成吗?想要使废土堆中被火烧过的石头复活吗?”(尼四:2

这里出现一连串的“想要”,讥笑犹大人正在妄想,正在作梦。

还有,亚们人多比雅火上加油:“这些人建造的,只要一只狐狸走上去,石墙就崩塌。”他是多么不屑和轻视犹大人的工作。

讥笑带来伤害,使人沮丧绝望。参巴拉和多比雅想利用讥讽击垮犹大人重建城墙的决心。不过,尼希米并未向羞辱低头。他以祈祷的心坚持工作下去。

尼希米带领犹大人不理会嘲讽声浪,继续专心修造城墙,结果把墙建立高至一半。重建城墙的工程继续有进展,因为人人都把心力放在工作上,没有放弃,也没有丧失信心。

然而,问题没有因此解决了。这时候出现更多的敌人。参巴拉是从耶路撒冷北面而来,多比雅是亚扪人,从东面而来。接着阿拉伯人出现,是来自南面的;亚实突人出现,是来自西面的。

这些人看见犹大人修造工程进展不错,就起来恐吓和破坏犹大人的工程。他们又同谋来攻击耶路撒冷,使城内扰乱。

这时候犹大人的内部也出现分裂。有一些犹大人说:『搬运的人气力已经衰弱,但瓦砾仍多,我们不能再建城墙了!还有,敌人已经说了,会趁我们不知不见,进入我们中间杀害我们,使工作停止』(10-11节)

其他一些住在敌人附近的犹大人,十次前来通知我们说:『你们必要回到我们那里。』(12节)

犹大人真是四面楚歌,腹背受敌!

在工作和事奉上,我们有时也会在这样的困境中。压力,敌人,反对的势力,从四方八面而来。不但越来越强,越来越多,而且他们对我们显出愤怒,作出恐吓、诈骗和讥笑!他们藐视我们的工作和事奉,认为我们不能作什么。

他们要透过讥笑和批评使我们气馁和放弃。等到我们坚持工作稍有进展时,他们就来阻扰和破坏我们的工作。

这些都是外面敌人的攻击,接着内部自己的人也出现分裂和不同心。同工的人起来说,不能再建城墙了!还不是一次,而是十次说,攻击将从各方来到,我们不能够继续做下去了!

天天面对四方八面而来的压力,一次又一次听到坏消息,而且自己的同工的心已溃散了,惧怕了,气力没了。面对这样艰难的时候,所以我们就惧怕了?所以我们就放弃了?和谈了?投降了?实在有太大的理由,要我们停工。面对这些因由,尼希米没有放弃!

以祷告来配合策划与工作(Pray, Plan, Execute)

尼希米并未向侮辱妥协。他和犹大人求告神,恳求神介入审判那些阻扰圣工的仇敌。尼希米的祈祷神报应那些攻击他们的敌人。他不是为了报复,不是出自私心,而是为了要彰显神的公义,以及完成神的工作。

犹大人祷告之后,继续工作之后,困难没有因此停止。他们面对接踵而来更多的敌人的阻扰。他们还是向神祷告,又因敌人的缘故,设立守卫,日夜防备他们(四:9)。

今天若有人讽刺你的信心和想法,无理批评你的工作时,不要理他们,也无须气馁。你只要向神倾诉你的感受,牢记他的应许,你便有勇气和力量继续向前。

当尼希米进一步面对内部的分裂时,还是不屈服。尼希米作出一些有效的防御方法。他命令百姓各按宗族拿刀、拿枪、拿弓站在城墙后边低洼的空处作出防备。

我们留意到一点很重要,尼希米一方面向神祷告,另一方面“因他们的缘故,设立守卫,日夜防备他们”(9节);“又使百姓各按宗族拿刀、拿枪、拿弓站在城墙后边低洼的空处。”

倚靠神,向神祷告,并不是代表我们什么都不用做。面对考试压力的时候,向神祷告了,就不必读书吗?

所以,我们一方面向神祷告,一方面自己努力,作自己应该作的事,尽当尽的本分。尼希米把祷告、准备工作和计划结合在一起。他和犹大人民尽管信任神,作出行动来看守神所交托的一切。

我们常常祈祷,但可能不努力去明白神的心意;不学习和不研究有什么有效的方法解决问题;缺乏勇气和委身去实行补救计划。正确的态度应该好是祷告,加上思考、研究和作出行动尝试解决苦难。

传递异象,建立团队精神 (Impart vision, instill team work)

尼希米还鼓励那些贵族和官长说:『不见要怕他们,当记念主是大而可畏的。你们要为弟兄、儿女、妻子、家产战争。』(14节)

尼希米强调耶和华神是大能,百姓可以依靠神得胜。尼希米不是孤军作战的悲剧英雄。他很在意团队服侍。他刻意的以神的名义鼓动那些贵族,官长和人民,一起来抗敌。

尼希米还给大家一个长远又贴身的异象或目标:为了家庭和孩子的生存建立长远又稳妥的家园。尼希米提醒大家,当留意神的呼召和工作目标,并且重申神大能的保护。

今天如果你被工作和各种问题所缠绕,感到忧郁、烦闷和沮丧,请记住神在你的生命和工作中给你的目标,以及神会帮助你朝着目标前进。

总结

在这些日子中,我们真的难以预测未来的经济、政治等走向,唯一可以预测的是疫情会继续困扰着我们。我们来向神祷告,神能够帮助我们胜过困难和挑战,因为神将圣工放在我们的心中,他一定会保守,叫我们成全他的工作。

我们每个人都来作出自己的本分,全体一心来做主工,不停止事奉和传福音。我们当不辞劳苦,想办法和作出行动来解决所有难题。神一定会帮助我们解决困难和抵抗魔鬼撒旦,因为他喜悦我们的服侍,喜悦我们的态度,以及爱护我们。他是我们的磐石、拯救和保障,我们必不至动摇。

15节说:『尼希米设立守卫,日夜防备,分派众人站岗,尽力做了他们所能作的,结果神作工了,神破坏了敌人的计谋,他们就不敢来了。』

当我们信靠神,祈祷,乐意与神同工的时候,神也必定做工,成就他自己的工作。这样,我们为神所计划的,所实行的一切,就不再是梦想而已,必会成就,实现目标。我们就会深深经历到神是又真又活的,在过程中我们的内心也会有真平安,那是多么美妙的事情!

求主将这信心、勇气、委身付出的心、以及真平安赐给我们,让我们能够看见和经历他奇妙的作为。

输给上帝是真父亲



创世记32:3-32

雅各与神摔跤

雅各与妻儿、仆人们,以及许多牲畜,离开亚兰回到家乡迦南地。雅各即将与久违的哥哥以扫相见。他的前面是危机四伏,因为以扫很可能向他复仇。雅各安排仆人提早到以东地,向以扫问安,打个招呼,为了探听消息。结果报告说,以扫带了四百人来迎接,情况好像是兴师问罪。雅各该如何应付呢?

祷告和行动,同时进行

雅各发挥了谨慎和奋斗精神。他将人和产业分成两队。如果真的遭受攻击,其中一队人可以及时逃脱。他又将送给以扫的礼物走在前头,好向以扫展示善意,为要使他心软。与此同时,雅各没忘记向神祷告。他祈求神保护他平安。雅各在祷告里提醒神曾经应许厚待他和祝福他后裔繁多。

『雅各说:耶和华我祖亚伯拉罕的神,我父亲以撒的神阿,你曾对我说:回你本地本族去,我要厚待你。你向仆人所施的一切慈爱和诚实,我一点也不配得;我先前只拿着我的杖过这约但河,如今我却成了两队了。求你救我脱离我哥哥以扫的手;因为我怕他来杀我,连妻子带儿女一同杀了。你曾说:我必定厚待你,使你的後裔如同海边的沙,多得不可胜数。』(9-12节)

雅各没有坐以待毙,也没有因惧怕而不知所措。他做了最怀的打算也是最精明的打算。雅各做了人应该做的那部分,然后就祷告仰望神,通过祷告与神保持密切和好的关系。当人与神保持和好的关系之后,可以期待人与人之间的冲突被化解。

今天我们生命是否遇见困境、危机和挑战。当我们说要仰望神,那是什么意思呢?

仰望神是说,尽自己所能做好本分去解决难题。当我们能够做的都做完了之后,发现还有一些空间是人手无法达成的。这时我们就向神呼求,求他赐下足够的恩典去填补我们的不足。

今天许多人只懂得祷告,而不采取行动,这是不负责任的托词。许多人衡量了自己的能力后,觉得不行,就不去做了,这也是错误态度,因为不懂得仰望神。如果我们什么都算好,稳打稳,有足够把握才肯去做,那么神有空间去发挥吗?

我们做好自己的本分,以及向神祈求,两者必须同时间进行。而且当我们明知力量不逮,还是凭信心去做,仰望神赐恩帮助,这是正确的仰望神!当我们与神保持密切的关系时候,许多困难与冲突就能够迎刃而解。

故事往后发展显示,雅各最后是平安无事,而且获得哥哥的饶恕与接纳。『以扫跑来迎接他,将他抱住,又搂着他的颈项,与他亲嘴,两个人就哭了。』(三十三4

以扫见到雅各时候的态度完全改变过来。他非常珍爱雅各和欢迎他归来。以扫的改变不是因着雅各的筹划,而是因着雅各向神祷告。神就改变了以扫的心意,叫他满足于自己所拥有而不掠夺雅各。神的作为真奇妙!

今天你是否面临许多难题忐忑不安?不要放弃,不要气馁,依靠神,向神祈求。把你的难题交托给神,靠着他勇往直前。你的困难不比雅各遇见的危机更加严峻!

抓紧神,黑夜将过去

话说回头;现在是夜晚,隔天一早雅各就要与以扫见面。雅各先打发全部家人和产业护送过雅博渡口,过了河的对面。他自己却逗留在河的另一面。为什么雅各要独处?他要单独一个人默想,继续向神祷告?或是安静下来,畴算对策?或是他在找机会必要时一走了之?

二十年前,雅各一个人,一根杖,过约旦河。现在他妻儿成群,家产丰裕,这情况容许他走得那么潇洒吗?明天一早,雅各的生命将来到一个转捩点。他可能会失去拥有的一切,到头来生命一场空!

这是漫长的一夜。雅各心中迷惘、精神恍忽、孤单一人、没有家人、没有财产、没有任何保护伞;他必须单独面对生命的无常与生死存亡。这时候神出现了!

一位神秘人意外的出现在雅各面前。当时天色很黑,雅各没看清楚神秘人是谁就扑过去和他摔跤,一直到黎明。雅各可能把对方幻想成生命里的种种困难和抵挡势力,包括哥哥,以扫。雅各将内心的恐惧,忧虑和郁结经过摔跤和体力的消耗,完全释放出来!

黎明到临,曙光初现。『黑夜』代表雅各生命的幽暗面和挣扎,『天明』预示雅各得到医治和释放,苦难和挑战被摆平。雅各的问题迎刃而解!

雅各与这人摔跤时候,感觉到他是从神那里来的,就抓住他不放开,直到对方肯祝福他。

『那人说:天黎明了,容我去罢!雅各说:你不给我祝福,我就不容你去。那人说:你名叫甚麽?他说:我名叫雅各。那人说:你的名不要再叫雅各,要叫以色列;因为你与神与人较力,都得了胜。』(26-28节)

雅各从挣扎和摔跤,过渡到祈求。雅各之前所有的追求和争竞都不能带给他真正的幸福和满足感。唯有紧紧抓住神,生命才踏实,安稳和满足。最后那个神秘人给雅各祝福,替他取了新名字以色列,代表他从神那里获得新生,能够勇敢地出去面对问题,克服难关。

今天我们可能好像雅各那样,一直与人争竞,甚至不择手段追求和争取财富、亲情、事业、荣誉和权力等。我们高唱“爱拼才会赢”,我们一定要当赢家!人生渴慕和追求成功是没有错的。我们是错在以为获得成功之后,生命就会幸福美满,找到活着的意义和满足感。

我们终究会发现生命无常,而这些东西不能真正带给我们满足和生命的意义。我们在打拼的过程中,突然掉进许多个人的『黑夜』,面对危机和困难,心中充满彷徨和挣扎。神就在这时候出现与我们相遇。他出手引领和祝福我们,给我们勇气和能力去面对挑战。

让我们在祷告里与神摔跤,在敬拜服侍里与神摔跤,并且紧紧抓住他,锲而不舍地追求他,信靠他,直到他祝福我们。我们的生命若有神的同在,他的恩典够我们用,他会加给我们其他东西,满足我们的渴慕,叫我们真正幸福和活得有意义!

输给神是真赢家,真父亲

雅各大半生人都在争竞,欺骗和谋算。那个神秘人说,雅各与神,与人较力,都得了胜利!然而,雅各真的赢了吗?

『那人见自己胜不过他,就将他的大腿窝摸了一把,雅各的大腿窝正在摔跤的时候就扭了。』(25节)

其实雅各是输给神!那个人轻轻” 地摸了一下雅各的大腿窝,就把他弄瘸了。那个人有超人的能力。他之前与雅各摔跤输了只是让雅各一把。他要赶在天明前离开,也是为了保护雅各。雅各若清楚看见神的面会即刻死去。

很吊诡的,当雅各输给了神,明白神是比他更加大,必须单单依靠神,顺服神时候,他反而成为真正的赢家。这时候的雅各跛脚了,不能够靠自己力量做什么,就是逃跑也不行,他反而能够在软弱中依靠神的祝福得胜。他一拐一拐勇敢地走在家人面前,去迎见以扫,成了一位真正有担当,成功的父亲!

三十三1-3这么说:『雅各举目观看,见以扫来了,后头跟着四百人,他就把孩子们分开交给利亚,拉结,和两个使女,并且叫两个使女和她们的孩子在前头,利亚和她的孩子在后头,拉结和约瑟在尽后头。他自己在他们前头过去,一连七次俯伏在地才就近他哥哥。』

雅各带着伤痕上路。然而,这伤痕乃是恩典的印记,提醒雅各神与他同在。他单单依靠神的应许和恩典就能够战胜所有的困难。他不当逃兵了。他负起一家之主的责任,去面对危机与困难!

今天我们可能好像雅各一样不断与人争竞,也不断与神争竞。我们可能对人不择手段,出手不留情,不遑多让。我们不顺服神,也不顺服神设立的领袖。我们偏行己路,与神斤斤计较。我们紧抓住名、利、权力、爱情、财富和事业等。我们表面是赢家,其实是真正的输家。

世事无常,我们一朝失去了名、利、权力、爱情、财富或事业……,我们就潦倒和沮丧,或无法面对现实而自寻短见。若我们终于一朝成功争到这些东西,才发觉生命并不因此美满和幸福。原来我们抓错了东西了。这些东西都是偶像,无法给予我们幸福和生命的意义。

我们以很多的偶像代替了那又真又活的神,因此我们还是活在忐忑不安,彷徨度日,心中不满足。我们没有平安和喜乐,只有争竞和疲乏。我们生命的意义和幸福只有来自神本身。只有神才能够真正满足我们内心的空虚。

在各各他,黑暗笼罩下,耶稣基督真实软弱地挂在十字架上,为了救赎我们。耶稣紧贴着十架,虽然他有能力跳下来,因为他要争取到父神的祝福,不是为自己,乃是为了我们。

加拉太书三13-14说:『基督替我们成了咒诅,就救赎我们脱离律法的咒诅,因为经上记着凡挂在木头上的都是受咒诅的。这是让亚伯拉罕所蒙的福,在基督耶稣里临到外族人,也让我们借着信心,领受所应许的圣灵。』

我们和雅各一样,与神面对面没有死,反而得到祝福,因为耶稣软弱的死在十字架上,为我们付清了罪债,使我们能够与神和好。这样神应许给亚伯拉罕的福气可以临到我们身上。

我们在神以外的东西找不到祝福。在基督里我们被接纳成为神的儿女。圣灵在我们心中呼叫阿爸父,证明我们是神的儿女。我们可以从神领受生命终极的祝福。

结语

今天我们若是走了远路,经过无数的争竞,投向错误的目标去追求幸福,现在就回转,接受耶稣做生命的主,借此回到神的怀抱。输给神的父亲才是真赢家,真父亲!输给神的意思就是顺服神的带领,放下叛逆的自我,臣服在神的威严下,遵从他的旨意,敬畏他,以神为我们生命的中心。

有神做我们的保障和避难所,我们从此可以活得踏实、安稳、快乐和有意义。我们能够坦然地接受生命中任何的得与失,因为我们知道神是爱我们的,我们可以安息在他的怀中。你愿意成为这位大赢家,真父亲吗?